Hair Change!

As those of you that follow me and have read my other blog posts know, I have a condition called trichotillomania. For those of you who have never read a single post I have ever written, hi, my name is Julia, and I have trichotillomania. There is no simple answer to what trichotillomania is, but an attempt at one is that it is a mental condition called an impulse control disorder, and it causes me to impulsively pull my hair out. There also isn’t a simple reason why, so I’m not even going to go there in this post.

This post is about a recent change I’ve made to my hair. For me, it was quite a big deal. So, most people that have trich have pretty thin hair. Many wear wigs or hair pieces to hide bald spots or particularly thin patches. For a while I wore hair pieces. I eventually cut my hair really short and got highlights to help blend in with the thin spots (my aunt is a hairdresser, which actually helps a lot). Ever since that moment I have been trying to grow my hair back out and I have been coloring my hair, as a way to appear more confident in it than I really am. I don’t know if it gave off that impression at all, but that’s what I was going for.

For most of high school, my hair was pretty much the same length, save the bald spots and such. I kept my hair around shoulder length and strategically styled it to hide anything that would give away my missing hair (although that was sometimes almost ridiculous because my mom would tell people I was losing my hair (everyone in my family thinks I have alopecia because I don’t know how to tell anyone that I have trich)). Towards the end of high school I started trying to grow my hair out even longer. My main problem spot is the top of my head (the crown). It eventually got to the point where the rest of my hair was long and thick enough that I could hide it by wearing my hair up, which I still do to this day. I’ve gotten slightly more creative with the ways I wear my hair, but nothing too fancy. Up until January 2nd, 2015, I had been growing my hair out. Most of it was down to my waist, and I was almost confident about it, but I knew it was really unhealthy and needed to be cut, because it hadn’t been and the dye had pretty much ruined it.

I told my aunt I wanted my hair cut. I went in. I had my hair cut. Almost 8 inches. 8 INCHES. When she was done, I couldn’t believe it. My hair. It was short. It still goes past my shoulders and is what most people would consider medium to long, but IT’S SHORT. It feels so different. I was so nervous about it because I wasn’t sure if I would be able to style just right. I was afraid losing the length would somehow make it impossible to hide everything. Well, it’s not. And my hair feels SO HEALTHY. I can’t even remember a time it has felt so soft and healthy and easy to comb.

My next goal is to grow out the hair at the back of my crown. You know, that part where your hair swirls or whatever. That is one of my problem spots, but I’ve been getting better. I think if I can make my problem area as small as possible, I won’t have to work so hard on hiding, and I can feel more confident in general. I also think I am going to dye my hair less, maybe stop all together, for the sake of it’s health. But I have to say, I will really miss the purples and pinks.

Do you have any tips or tricks for hiding your problems spots? Do you have problem spots? What is your favorite hair style? What are your favorite hair products? I will probably make a post later about the products I use and what products I think are great for people with trich. Thanks for reading!


A (Short) Word on Underage Drinking

In the United States, the legal drinking age is 21 years old. I personally believe that is a fine age for it. At 18, many people are still in high school. At 21, one might still not know what they are doing with their lives, but at least by this point they are likely in college, possibly working, and making important life decisions. The adult brain is more developed. We’ve experienced more. Of course, this makes underage drinking in college easier and more likely to happen, but I don’t think underage drinking is unavoidable, no matter what age your set the limit at.

I personally don’t see the point in underage drinking. Alcohol isn’t necessary to have a good time. I can see why people enjoy having a drink with their friends; it can taste good, it can help you loosen up if you’re stressed, it’s a social norm and just part of having a good time. It makes sense, and I’m sure when I turn 21, I will take part. But I will not beforehand, nor will I drink to the point of blacking out, passing out, etc. I want to have a good time, but isn’t the point of that being able to remember it?

Anyway, I could go on and on about all of this. I am writing a bit about it because my boyfriend’s sister’s boyfriend (not confusing, right?) was in a very bad accident last night due to underage drinking. He and some friends had decided to steal some alcohol, then take that alcohol to the roof of their high school to drink it. One bad idea after another lead the young man to decide to sit on a skylight on the roof, which didn’t support his weight. He fell through it and landed on the hard tile floor below. He is currently in the hospital, in the ICU, on oxygen. He has been responding to questions by moving his fingers, because he isn’t really able to do much else.

I’m writing this because if there are any young readers out there that see this, I want them to think twice about illegally drinking. I also want everyone out there to think twice about how much they are drinking, who they are with, and what they are doing. Alcohol is an incredibly dangerous substance. It can cause one with depression to feel more depressed, it can cause poisoning, and it can cause incredibly bad decision making.

I also want to ask anyone that reads this to please pray for the young man in the hospital and his family and for my boyfriend’s younger sister. This is a very hard time for everyone. Thank you, and please share this story with anyone you believe needs to hear it.

Trich Tricks #2

Hello everyone! I have another tip for you all! This one is a lot of fun 🙂

I recently purchased a fantastic head/scalp massager. It is FANTASTIC.


It is great for stimulating the scalp (basically it makes your scalp feel all tingly and it’s great). It’s a great distraction from pulling. I made a short little video to demonstrate how to use it.

(So, I don’t know how to add videos? Help? Anyway, try these! Super great! Let me know what you think in the comments)

App Review (This one is for the ladies)

Alright, men, you might not want to read this post.

Yesterday I downloaded an app called Period Tracker. The name is pretty self-explanatory. I’ve only had it for a day, so I can’t really say yet how accurate it is, but it is very detailed yet user friendly.

What you do is put in what day you start your period, and you can add notes and symptoms, and put in what day you finish, and the app predicts when you will start your next period, when you will be most fertile, and what day you will ovulate. As you add more information over the months, I imagine it gets more and more accurate.

I have had a bit of trouble with it freezing up and not responding, but I think that’s just my stupid crappy phone.

If I continue to use this app, I will try to remember to post another review on it after several months.