Busy, Busy, Busy

So, clearly, I’m not exactly the best or most consistent blogger ever. I’ll definitely be working on that. I can’t post everyday, but I’ll do everything I can to post a little more regularly.

I’ve been very busy the past couple of weeks.

I’m taking a math class (yuck) so that takes up a lot of my time. On Saturday, July 12, I threw a surprise 21st birthday party for my boyfriend (best friend in the whole world), so that Friday and Saturday I was pretty busy. Then the following Wednesday was his actual 21st, so we went out with his family to a Mexican restaurant called El Maguey, where he had some of his first drinks. He really didn’t like any of them, which was kind of entertaining, so his dad finished one of his drinks, and well, that was even more entertaining. I ended up having to drive everyone back home in his mom’s car, which was quite the (loud) adventure. It was a very fun and pretty interesting night. His birthday present from his parents was tickets to the Cardinals game that Friday, so all of us went, which was a lot of fun (I LOVE BASEBALL FYI), except for all the driving and traffic and not knowing where I was going and stuff.

Also last week, my friend’s (BRITISH) boyfriend came in from London. She has been waiting for this all summer, so it was incredibly exciting when he finally got here. We went on a completely necessary double date to Waffle House (so classy) and it was a ton of fun. Her boyfriend is very funny, especially to people like me and my boyfriend who laugh at almost everything. My friend and her boyfriend are now on a really fun all American road trip (jealous).

I feel like a lot more has been going on, but because I’ve been so busy and running around so much, I’m probably forgetting some things.

I’ll try to post again soon! I have my math final on Monday (which I should be studying for), so after that, I should have a little more time to post. If any of you have any suggestions for posts you would like to see, just let me know in the comments. ūüôā¬†

Trich Tricks #1

So, I got the idea to start sharing tips for coping with trich and controlling the urge to pull from watching videos by¬†Rebecca Brown. With this first post, I’m just going to share a few things that work for me.

One thing I’ve recently starting doing is using coconut oil, as an attempt to make my hair thicker which I’ve actually seen work on my younger sister. Not only does it make your hair softer and thicker, but because it is oily, for as long as you have it in your hair, you can’t mess with your hair or pull on it. Today I bought shower caps to use when I put the coconut oil in my hair, to hopefully help keep it from dripping.

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Something else that also works is sleeping with a night cap or slumber cap on.

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I just picked this up at Walmart today. I’ve had one before, but haven’t for a while. I think they really help. I know for me, the times I pull most is when I’m sitting on the computer, watching tv, and laying in bed. Wearing this keeps me from being able to twist, play with, and pull my hair. It can be weird sleeping with one of these on, but after some time, you get used to it.

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Feel free to comment any tips and tricks that have worked for you, and maybe I’ll share them in a later post.
Good luck!

Finding the Words…

I’ve always been the kind of person that writes better than I can speak. I’ve always loved reading and writing. I love sending and receiving letters. Real letters. Like, in the mail. I love handwriting letters and cards to people I care about. I love writing songs and poetry. Poems are like, my favorite.

Whenever I have something I want to tell someone, I tend to put it into some form of written word. I love writing poems and letters especially to my amazing boyfriend. About a year and a half ago, I was on a retreat, and we were given some free time, so I sat down and wrote a letter to my boyfriend. I’ve written letters to him before, but this was the first time I told him about my trichotillomania, partially because I had just recently learned the word myself. My boyfriend is truly my best friend and has been for several years, and there is no one in the world that I trust more. I felt it was finally time to get it out there to someone. I had never told anyone about it, not my family, none of my friends, ever. So, a year and a half ago, I wrote it all out.

A few days ago, the day after I started this blog, I was with my boyfriend, I had just had a rather emotional night, after watching a bunch of videos by¬†Rebecca Brown, doing a lot of research about trich, and starting this blog. I had told him the night before that I really wanted to talk to him, as a way to keep myself from backing out of it the next day. But when it came down to it, I just couldn’t get the words out. I wanted to, but the more I thought about what to say, the more difficult it became, until I eventually just broke down into tears. Thanks to his love and patience, I was eventually able to get some words out and talk to him a little more about trich.

This disorder isn’t to deal with. I think everyone has their own way to go about it. Some people have youtube channels, some people confide in a therapist, others their families. I have confided solely in my boyfriend, and now I have this blog. This blog is a way to get my feelings and experiences out there, in a public, yet private and anonymous way. I have yet to find the confidence and courage to tell more people that I know personally what I am going through. This is a small step in a better direction for me.

As I post more, and potentially gain more followers, I would like to ask that if you follow me on any other form of social media, please don’t publicize what I put here. What I put here, I want just here (and tumblr, which my posts get automatically posted to). Some day, I might become more public with my disorder, but right now, this is the only place I am comfortable with sharing it. The only person that even knows I started this blog is my boyfriend. Hopefully with his support, and this blog, I will someday be more confident in myself.

Day 1. What to Say…

Day 1. I guess I’ll start by introducing myself a bit. My name is Julia, I’m 20 years old, and I have trichotillomania, and big word you’ve probably never heard of. I hadn’t heard of it, either, not until just last year, my freshman year of college; yet, I had unknowingly been struggling with this condition since about 5th grade, if not younger. So, what is this trichotillomania? Well, TTM or trich is basically a compulsive hair pulling disorder. Not much is really known about it, but if you want to know more about it than I can really explain well, I recommend¬†http://www.trich.org/, a place I just discovered today. Now, why did I just randomly decide to make a blog at almost 11 o’clock at night about some weird, hair pulling disorder? Because today I came across a blogger/vlogger/beautiful and inspiring British girl, Rebecca Brown, or Beckie0, who also has trichotillomania, and I watched some of her videos on her trich channel,¬†https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC61riJ9dHUNKhedeejZfXAg. I was inspired.
This blog is the first step on a new journey for me. For the first time, I am openly speaking about my trichotillomania. Let’s see where this takes me.